Friday nightStarted the day with Jap studying, coz ultimately i'm having jan test on Sunday, inwhich i'd today forgotten if huimin didnt remind me yesterday.
Yesterday, meaning friday, the grp met out as usual, but for LAN gaming which we havent been doing for some time already. Its gonna be L4D2 or so, BUT roaming thru all the LAN shops, its full. Guess all the KIAs are released from sch, coz its sch holidays.
Well ended up at the pub beside Hotel Rendezvous. Just chatting around until night. around 1145pm when we started to disperse. Well, lucky of coz there's still train to NEL, and whats most, there's still LRT back lol, super save money.
Saturday Night, Traffic LightGreen, Yellow n Red. in conclusoin, green means available yellow means kinda Complicated, Red means attached. Its nice concept of them, although not new, to think og things like this. But i'm just gonna play along.
Alright man lets go Supper Club. Yea i've heard of it, but nv gone there. Stalking online gives me the cost of Chivas @ $200. lolx yea exp!! But looks super nice, the white themed place.
Went there kinda early, me n JS met earlier to eat Dinner. Walking around the place gives us Shokudo. Well ordering the stuffs, skipping all the boliao stuffs, Sam called me, and just nice he n TianWei were outside Shokudo. Just nice omg. And so we rendezvous inside Shokudo.
When see TianWei, we buay lun... ... ...
Actually its OK la, but just alittle too light in the inside i feel. Need something more non-thin inside. Anyway he got this own attraction powers, such that the Shokudo waitress buay lun, go touch his MUSCLES. They really buay lun... that sense of attraction wielded by LTA BIG SMILE...
Kinda reached too early, since we tot the event page said 9pm. Well we're hanging around until 10pm+ then went in.
Funny thing occured, the bouncers all checked TW, JS then Sam quite thoroughly. But when its my turn, i raised my arms apart. Then the bouncer said, OK dont need. Didnt even touch me or what lolx. The question that came out, "Am I of ZERO Threat?"
Even at the entrance/receiption, well the place looks very nice. Entering it, whatheck, super nice. Its really very nice looking, really that WHITE looking. Oh well, we got to lv2 sofas, its super comfy. Theres all those bed/sofas, thing need u need to take off ur shoes. Started at the Sofas, but we eventually shifted to the Bed Sofas.
We were in trouble for 1 thing, the Cranberry mixers are gone like no one's business. Our bottle kinda only drank 10-15%, but we already finished 1 mixer out of the 2. Something needs to be done. The worst has happenned, we're going On The Rocks lol. Doing stupid thing kinda like really JUST TO FINISH the bottle lolx. Counting seconds, going 1 round for every one. Rule is simple, the next guy must drink longer than u. Well we drank like no one's business, its not alot la yea, but enuff to skared them. Can see they keep looking at us when we hold the bottle up and TAH, lol.. abit stupid la but ya... for the sake of MIXERS!!!
Yea JS, why u always go these kind of places cannot drink cannot drink or semi KO, kinda like missing 1 physical existence.
SGGals market dropped for me. Why? Me and JS went down from lv2, then we decided on rest awhile on the edge of the sofa bed. Coincidentally, the girl beside me puked. Though she got a friend beside. Whatheck man!! Luckily i wasnt sitting very near her. Like merlion, tmd she puked ALOT!! Seeing this situation, Shion told Korea's Finest, "Eh, now got chance.. see.."
Took out a pack of tissue, and offered her the pack. She didnt look at me or what. Her friend didnt even look at me too. Well, the floor was spammed with toilet papers. I take it to the Cleaning department, they came REAL FAST!! Nice work SUPPER CLUB.
I dunno why, but Korea's Finest was LAUGHING non-stop. He kept saying its FUNNY.. he laugh is not like normal.. its like hearing that u're pack of ALAN's pack leh.. its laugh till dun recognise parents.
Then i was kinda expecting her reply, thanks or what. Kinda... wait.. wait.. ok maybe wait for her to finish vomiting, coz kinda ugly to look at ppl right after vomiting? Then she kinda tidied up herself, and then.. she and her friend took off.. Left the tissue pack behind.. I was like WHATHECK??!!! Ok, nvm i'll take back the tissue remains.. TMD... ALL GONE!! LEFT PLASTIC!!!
HUAT!! SGGals rox!!
I was like, nt even a thanks?? And her friend didnt say anything or look at me or anything.. tmd.. honestly speaking i was quite pissed of.. but nvm.. i'll just remember the laughing part.. She vomited ALOT!!!!!! tmd....
Seriously, i like Supper Club quite alot, the nice is nearly furnished, and very little or no KIDS. Yea fight occurs, but i guess tats normal for every drinking places. The toilet, is imba funny.. super small, but its VERY CLEAN!! Or somewhat considered clean bah.
But well talking bout the Traffic Light event, its a total FLOP. Well, we see Blue light bangles, some purple, and some holding all colors. It makes the initial point for event POINTLESS. Well seems like everyone just take what they wanted, well for us 4, its GREEN. But i doubt that make any difference, coz the color no longer has any significance.
And the most HIGH song is... GaGa's Bad Romance. I totally gave in to that song..
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Dun think that i'm perfect k, everyone is chui-ed in a certain sense. One shldnt resent their default appearance. The least u can do is the do something. This is what i call 后天性 ppl. I'm not 先天性 good looking, means by default good looking. Well thats what makeups are for, inwhich guys dun use. Well, so lets save the situation.
I'd be honest bout myself. My problems. I dun usually talk bout it, coz its natural for ppl not to talk bout their inferior stuffs, just liek girls wont wanna listen to a guy talking bout their bad points coz they're looking for a winner, not loser. Whatever it is, i'm not a Casanova, i know nothing bout girls, i only care bout myself.
I have Acne probsPpl who know me can tell. Since sec sch, i have kinda serious pimple outbreak, on face especially. I do admit now i'm getting alot lesser but hey, its unfair. See my eating habits. No spicy if can, by default i always avoid spicy. No snack, no chocolate bars, no chips. See this imba habit? Its kinda my in-built habit already. Honestly speaking, at first of coz its coz i wanna reduce Acne issues, then as time goes by it kinda melted into my character, now really, i have no urge for these kinda stuffs.
Faciel acne is the main thing. To solve? Not totally and flawless but at least some efforts. I'll explain some things. Damages done to ur face, cannot be saved by anything except Skin Renewal concept. Basically by burning the top chui-ed area using LASER, then enhancing regeneration to fill it back. Of coz u cant burn ONE big time, then let it recover, like tat ur face get skinnier by 1cm? lolx. Its a repeating process, and its the best choice, most exp. Else u go by products, applying a alcoholic solution that burns ur skin, then applying regeneration cream. Its cheaper, but take longer time, and u nv know if it works.
Basically LASER is the word. BUT! its pretty much pointless if u're still suferring outbreaks, coz once its smooth-ed, ur pimple pops out again, like pointless?? But anyway, for ppl like me, who have controlled eating habits, and clean lifestyle, but STILL having no-reason outbreaks, i guess theres no choice i'll still go LASER. At least if new ones pop out, its like theres only 1 pimple or so. whathever, its $$$. Kinda like 1 session is ~300$, then a normal person needs bout 5-6 sessions.
The best way to prevent outbreaks is to eat a concentrate vitamin A pill, that cost 5$ per pill. It works godlike, i tried eating chocolates and chips, i wont have pimples. But long term usage damages kidneys, it will constantly dehydrate u, it makes me sick with fever at least once everyday 2mths. Basically its harmful, only advised to consume till ur Outbreak period is over.
This the the VitA stuffsHmm facial is obvioous, but its getting better as what u guys can see. But another hidden one, i'm revealing for the first time. I have serious back acne prob. B4 working as my current job, i do have few pimples or what.. very few.. i still can wear reveal-back clothes lol.. but now.. its like WHOA. even my grandma also can see.. seriously.. its quite serious.. i'm looking for solution now.. gonna consult Skin Centre soon, but again.. money..
U see that i almost seldom take off clothes, unless with ppl i super familiar, its not coz of muscles or skinny bones, its coz of back acne.. its serious yea i admit.. i blame my current job to the max, must be the uniform.
Face and back acnes, best solution is LASER, i'm so gonna save money for it. Stupid driving drainning my income like no one's business.
Skin toneI've become Darker, and its very obvious. Less week woon Gackt n me were talking. I kinda chat with Gackt bout the first time we met each other. Actually the rest saw Gackt b4 me. He told that the rest said theres another guy with Japanese looking one.. yea thats referring to me.
I have intention of asking him how my skin tone looks. He said, that time he saw me he cannot believe that i'm so White. Ok to correct that, i'm not White till those Japanese AV stars, or those rich kids who seldom get their fats shined by sun. I'm just not-tanned look. Hey u know i'm borned with it? I risked for being called a g@y, coz i always use umbrella when walking to sch, but i knew the fact, so i only use them when i'm at my house area. When i'm in sch, i just walk under the sun, but avoid un-sheltered area AT ALL COST!!! I can take 2x distance just to avoid sun. And i avoid all outdoor activities when the Sun is up. Means no swimming or basketball in the afternoon, and i still do so now.
And my upkeep daily? I apply Nivea night moisturizer Whitening every night, not to entire body of coz, just arms and legs, those that will constantly catch sunlight. With such upkeeps, of coz i am lighter shade than most tanned ppl. Face it, in SG if u're a normal guy, u wont look beach-color, u'll definitely look bronze-beach or light brown.
Nivea Whitening MilkGackt said i look SIBEI DARKer than last time. I do know myself its true, thx to my current job. I got so tanned that my peak is when u can see my White singlet imprinted on my body. Thats most imba that i cannot believe it. So afterthat all those intensive periods, for like 6mths or so, it finalyl went off. But whats left behind is my tanned arms and face, legs still ok-ok but its alittle darker than last time. See i've kinda been doing mild whitening, for 3 mths, i dun think i look whiter on my arms.. tmd.... thats one of my greatest concern, i cant be back to my old skin old..
Heard of indoor tanning? Well, theres indoor whitenning. I've researched the price, its 70/session. And need to go like regularly as a routine, else the skin will revert back its original color. Face it, its not very permanently, its gonna be a routine upkeep, just like waxing of legs. Its not permanently btw, need to keep doing every few mths.
Teeth probI wanna own a perfect teeth set. Those celeb teeth. I do admit my teeth is OK, not like most ppl who really need teeth jobs. Well one thing bout my teeth, its YELLOW, and i DUN SMOKE!! I'm gonna bleach it too.
Doing bracers for teeth, pain i dun care and can endure. But money, i dun have. Its least 2k, and i see 1% chance that i will get it done. So that leaves Bleaching only, its like ~100$, fast and long lasting, just need to mind what u drink.
Imba teeth setHair probMy hair grows SLOWer than other ppl, this i know. Perhaps its been more SLOWed coz i did regular dyeing and bleaching of hair. My calculation is that i'll need about 9mths to get back my old looks, mainly the sides.
My only problem isnt the time, its the money. I'm so broke now, i definitely have ZERO cents saved for my hair until my contract ends. Its a problem i'm worried about.
My hair inspiration has always been Jrock and FFAC's Cloud. Only up till now that i saw a real person cosplay Cloud, its KANAME. It does makes me study his hair.
KANAME in Cloud
The real person looks alittle different. I mean the hair is more smooth and bleached looking. The pictures, his hair always looks kinda rough and all. But real person, nope.. which is what that made me studied his hair yesterday. Although the back of his hair is not as elaborated as those in pictures, but i feel that the front looked better and more realistic.
Wardrobe probPpl think that Shion must have a wide selection of clothes. No doubt i'd like to buy many many clothes, BUT u're wrong. I dun have varieties. To be honest, i only have 3 sets of clothes, excluding 2 sets of Punkish ones.
See i need my hair and skin tone back. I dun see myself looking good on those J clothes. I've tried them recently, and it sux. Feeling so inferior, this may be the main thing that killed my Confidence. When u wear stuffs, confidence is no.1, whatever good things on u wont look well if u arent confident bout it urself. Thats the current me.
Mainly, i need $$ to buy stuffs. But when i have money what will i do??? Facial or clothes or others?? Which first???? Money prob is killing me..
I dare to wear ALL, except the one in blueHow good it'd be if i can own many diff genres of clothes.
Gonna Harness the Powess of MakeupsI'm not a girl so i dun need super heavy makeups. But i still need a certain degree of application to cover my current acne probs. I'll need Concealer, Foundation for the face.
Then i'll need fake double eye lids maker, theres MANY ways of getting a temp double eye lids.
I may be doing eye-linings sometimes depends on what i wear bah.
I may be drawing eye brows.
In all, i'll need to BUY all the stuffs.
Minor probsMy veins are quite visible, and thick somemore. I dun think it look nice on me. So what, how to solve? Botox?? But its a minor prob, i dun thnk i'm even gonna do anything bout it.
My shoulder got broader than last time, thats why u can nv invite me to swimming even of its in the morning or night. And i cant do anything bout it.
I cant cut the fats under my thighs, i do admit that i didnt do those Pilates exercise that i did last time, now its like slackier and lazier me. I promise to go jogging and those Pilates exercise like last time, after my contract ends with the company.
Kinda concerned bout the shaky fats on the upper arm, its what the chinese call 蝴蝶袖. Well its a prob for ladies themselves already, so i dun really care much but must put efforts to it. I'm zero on it.
I'm going to De-hair myself after my contract with my company ends.
I'm going to 修眉 after my contract with my company ends.
Can i sharpen my nose??
Can i pry open my eyes??
These are some problems that i have. ALOT RIGHT?? U guys just dun know it. Everyone got their own set of problems. Besides that i'm going to talk my lifestyles. Ideal ones.
I wish some things that i can do. I admire those girls who do modelling. Not professionally, but rather only for events, to earn money in such ways. They can do ALOT lesser things than u, but earn ALOT more than u. It makes me wonder, am i of no position to take their job? Just that most i see are girls.
For girls its easy. Got the looks, got the figure, go modelling. Lotsa opportunities. No looks also can, just not-fat, and cover up with makeups. U cant beat other prettier models by default, but ur money still rolls in.
I'm not aiming for those runway models. I'm referring to those Showgirls in SG. Like Super Import Cars, or Hardware stuffs. And most recently, Maid Cafe. The costume-theme cafe is what i'm looking for. Which is why i took up Waiter job at a japanese restaurant, finally all makes sense right? I wanna work in a costume themed restaurant.
My best crossdress maid inspiration/motivationAnd i wanna make this clear to ALL ppl. I dun COSPLAY. Cosplay by itself has the original meaning of Playing with Costumes. But its created for a sole purpose of Anime Cosplay. Hence when used, 99% of the ppl will take it as Anime Cosplay. Anime Cosplay isnt as simple, its not just looking like them, u need to act like them. Its like inheriting their character in u. I'm not interested in Anime Cosplay + Role Playing. I'm just into Fashion, inwhich Japan has blended Fashion to Anime and vice versa. I can and DARE to wear stuffs that ppl kinda only can find in Anime, at least in SG. Thats why when most ppl see me, they will stereotype me as Cosplayer (Anime/Roleplay). I like kinda uniform-ed stuffs, like student uniforms, maids, lolitas.
Hizaki in EGAI dun mind dressing like him, as long as i look well. I'm not trying to gender-change or what. I'm not Chao AQUA or what. Its just playing of costumes. I wont act Girlish, its just normal me, in a female-ish costume for fun.
Both are Miyavi
Or just casually like that (him)Back to topic, i dun wanna work fulltime, its just a parttime sidekick. Just for interest and fun. I by chance attended KANAME's cosplay talk yesterday. I heard bout his lifestyle, really normal working and also parttime at a butler cafe like twice a work. For the money he earned at butler cafe, he'll invest them in his cosplay stuffs. And he made a remarkable quote on newspaper, "Cosplay is my Girlfriend". Its cool, like Gackt, the real one, live till 400+ yrs old alone.
Coincidentally, what i wanna do, KANAME is doing. Perhaps ppl like us have this similar thinkings. But sadly for me, country differences. I cant find anything like this here. Even the ONLY 1 MAID CAFE here, is like having no business at all.
The MMK cafe at AFA09 is doing well, coz its temporary. Put it there for 3mths, and i doubt its business gonna be as good. But MMK did fare ALOT better than what i expected.
But MMK kinda changed my perspective in certain things. Now, i think that SG ppl can kinda sub my Jap chocobos. Actually they can be MOE~ but they always tshirt n hotpants combi. Now i think i'm kinda open to Locals, but for 1 thing, they need to be MOE in maid costumes.
Seeing KANAME in person up-close made me feel that i can built up abit. I'm very paranoid bout gainning muscles and mass. But then i saw KANAME, hmmmmm... well i guess i can build up abit, but all, after my contract ends.
How to get into such jobs like MMK and showgirls for events? I bet its modelling related. Needless to say, its where ppl will go looking for good-looking ppl. Honestly, i've tried searching abit online for modeling related stuffs, like agencies or what. Well, kinda like.. not really interested. Gotta face it that modelling in SG, are all TuaLiapMuscle hunky guys, not for me. Only modelling i saw that uses sleekier male models are like High Fashion Models. Those whereby professional walk the runway with LV Gucci or Chanel or some other sibei chim names.
Theres good and bad. Girls can just anyhow model for things, but it just makes them one of the many got-figure ppl. But if SG adopts the japan-ic style of models, then i'd definitely wanna join them, coz its new or what, u're more unique then the rest of the TuaLiapMuscles. But to wait for such things to happen, i'd rather swim to Japan. And do need to know that i'm NOTHING SPECIAL, i'm only human.
Perhaps i need to use Cosplay as a platform for me to get noticed and hire for events?
I wanna study in day, and at night do these kinda things. Go clubs shake shake for money also can. Or like short hours of cafe working.
I do not aim to get Distinctions during Uni, but the way i see the rest, kinda like having a Moderate Pass seems to be somewhat a problem. Some previous reasons choosing NTU over NUS. I know NUS is intensive studying, but NUS does holds a better name. See if i go NUS, i'm entering the best local uni, nice name and records for myself. I'm a Cosplayer in a themed cafe, i'm a NUS graduate, how cool it sounds. But i forego it coz of study stress, and somewhat coz i feel inferior too, can nv get in. And so i did... nv get in NUS lolx. Well anyway its pulling me in now, coz most of the guys are in NUS, how fun it can be, so i'm going to apply for it next year again!!
I dun know what i'll be doing in the future.
Money is not a problem when its the solution to a problem. But currently money is a problem for me.
Yea, i have zero privacy. And i've always SHARED room, TILL NOW!!! U know how old am i?? Guys dun have their own room?? This is bullshytx, as what i was talking with woon and gackt yesterday.
My bro moved out to rent room with his gf, he's working outside now fulltime, and we dun really see him around. Finally i have my own room? But then, the next night, my sis moved in IMMEDIATELY. Yea that stinks, i'm still not alone.
Comparison
When I'm sleeping:
Bro watches TV at night, with sounds
Bro talks on phone
Bro quarrels over the phone
Always ask me to tune down my PC volume, its not even half of his TV volume!!
Else ask me put on my earphones, so he can watch his without??
Sis goes out room to study when i'm sleeping
Sis is OK with my PC volume, and always ask me to play Music
Sis's seat is directly looking at my monitor
Sis always for nothing look at my screen and comment of the stuffs i do
Sis power, she ytd asked me if i can sleep with Lights On. SIAO!! Its like hello? com'on this is MY FREAKING ROOM!! Dun like plz go out.
But similarity? Both KILL my PRIVACY!!!!
U know i cant blog, or do anything personal. Even speaking on MSN requires some level of Stealthness, and yea u guys sometimes give me LINKS with SPECIAL CONTENTS, i cant click!! Sometimes i just clicked by mistake, its like freaking tio StoneCold Stunner, shock of life, jitao need to Agi x100 and click the top-right X button.
Perhaps this is the only time i can have my peace?? Weekdays 7-8pm, coz now the ch8 is attracting my sis. But then again, normally i reach home at 7.15~pm and by the time my Dinner ends, it'll be round 7.45pm. Then bathe and all, it'll exceed 8pm. So hmmm?? Still no time....
Its sad..
Last week i actually didnt slept at home for 2days, actually i planned a 3rd day. I told woon the reasons i dun kinda like to go back my home, apparently some of them are ABOVE. Seriously, when i reach home i cant relax 100%, i cant jump and KO on my bed. Say when i'm kinda drunk, i cant just seek into my room, coz someone's always there..
Lately i'm feeling lost and irritated by life. Well, i'm so busy with everyday of my life, and every free time i have, i'll be doing something. Currently i've been learning Driving and Japanese Language. Jap is OK, but driving is imba expensive, actually its about the same price, but taking both of them is killing me.. Its still amazing that i STILL can manage to save abit of money.. yea abit, such that when theres Xmas or anything, 1 trip out home wont have negate it.
Seriously, money is an issue. But to me, when money is the issue of something, it wont be considered as an issue. Same as woon.
Well, now.. the only times when i totally can relax is going out with THEM, the GENGARS. Seriously can do whatsoever shytx, go whatsoever place. I miss the days when ALL of us are Financially well. If now we are financially well, we'll do alot more interesting shytx, coz the things we do now has changed, perhaps coz of age and generation.
In my blog, i dun talk great ideas or comment of certain topic. Its basically like a Journal or a Diary book, all these are what i see and think, nothing much that contains things that make other ppl think. Thats why its long?? Gackt said its long lol, yea basically its the screen space as well. Ok, no fear, when i One-Room-Discoed, imma gonna change the entire look^-^
King's Cup = Hello Panda + Chivas + Soy Bean Milk + Dried Mangoes
HUAT
